The beauty of spring is that it comes once a year.....new, fresh and washing everything clean. It's also volatile in it's temperatures and sporadic with it's weather. But, it's a necessary process, right?
There are glimpses of the next season, like the warm spells here in Cali that have my kids requesting water balloons! But then the next day forecast will call for rain and thunderstorms.
It's a season of change, when plants pop up new and everything greens.
No matter the weather, it's a nice lull before the craziness of summer.
Living here is like springtime. It's new, it's laid back, and we're laying out plans for the future without really feeling the crunch yet. For now, those plans involve our next abode.
We made a quick sprint out of our house and are slowly adjusting to living with my parents.
They've made this process all too easy and I'm hopeful that we'll look back on these days and always treasure them! In the meantime, our house hunt has been fierce! We jet out of the house at the drop of a hat the minute a new house comes on the market. We've written atleast 4 offers in just under 4 weeks, and we've had two accepted. And two MAJORLY rejected! We keep reminding ourselves that there is only ONE house for us. Just one. And God already knows which one...so we don't have to strive to win 20 houses.....we just have to keep praying for that ONE.
Last week we may have found it.
We put in an offer the next day.....and I wavered all weekend about it's location. But my hubby stood firm and our offer went through.
Tonight we revisited our potential new home. It's gorgeous, and all signs point toward it being THE ONE.....but my heart is scared of the change. So many of the other houses were centrally located, and close to the familiar. But NONE of them have been doable. This one has everything we've been looking for....
But it's SO far out of town!
Here are my fears:
I'm used to being 'the sitter'....the playdate stop. The place people drop by with their kids, and where I treasure the sound of a 'full' house. Who will drive 15 more minutes to do that?
It just won't be 'easy' anymore.
Will it mean more time at home rather than running here or there with the kids? Gasp!
Homeschooling lends itself to lots of activities, which we treasure! In this house I'll have to budget my time and gas resources more than EVER before. (even as I type that I KNOW it's not a BAD thing- please don't snicker!)
Then there are my parents. In the past 10 years since I officially moved from their house, they have always been within a 5-7 minute drive. Yes, the cord is still VERY short! But my daddy is the one I call when my keys are locked in the car, and my mom is the one that will run over if my kids are sick and I need to run to the store for 7-up. In fact she'll usually whip up some soup, and deliver it WITH the 7-up!
This house is only one town over, but 20 minutes from my parents. A distance that I KNOW will be a stretch for them. Not to mention the stairs...Marmar's knees cannot tolerate the stairs in this house!
(No more tucking my kids in or babysitting at our house!)
My parents saw the house tonight, and have been VERY encouraging!
Many friends have promised to visit ;)
I don't usually have a problem making new friends....if those friends don't step it up....ahaaha....ahem.
But truly, God must have amazing things in store for us in that neighborhood/part of town if that's the case!
We'll just have to figure in that gas budget!
God is Sovereign. He is the God of Spring/the God of change! He can orchestrate these changes for good!
He's not surprised by my fears. In fact, He knows how weak my faith really is. How I've prayed for change, yet want it to be 'comfortable.' How I LONG for that next season of summer, yet balk at the less predictable period before it. Ah, the uncertainty of Spring.
Now after writing this:
To this time in our life I say, Bring it on!
I'm shaking off the uncertainty, even if the rain that comes in to water the flowers can look awfully gloomy.
I will admit I love the smell of rain, so fresh, so invigorating!
I'm reminded that for YEARS I've been asking God to move us AWAY...little did I know it would be just FAR enough away to make me uncomfortable, while still moving me out of my 'comfort zone!'
One last thought: Did I mention that we'll be in the same development that started this journey?
All of the peace and vision we had for living in that area makes SO much sense now.
Talk about full circle huh?
Kinda like the seasons.